Ghost Trees

So I thought this was rather comical looking. We are heading for another freeze tonight and as my poor lilac bushes have been rather abused, I didn't want them being harmed by a hard freeze. So I covered them with sheets, held down by rocks. My neighbors think I'm nuts I'm sure.

New Car!

Yeah, so I have no life that I'm blogging about the new car Andrew and I just came home with today. If you've been reading, then you know that our 96 Explorer kicked the bucket a few weeks ago, and we've been surviving with one car, our trusty 99 Accord with 163,000 miles. Thankfully I'm working from home now so it hasn't been too much of an issue, except for those days I did need to run some errands. We wanted to take our time, so we looked around at a few places and stumbled upon a 2005 Nissan Altima. We drove it, all looked good and drove nice, but the salesman wouldn't come down to a price we were willing to pay, so we left. He called back the next day with an even lower price. We kept looking, but ended up back again yesterday and took it home today. It is the newest and lowest mileage car I have ever owned, so I'm very excited.
















Although my little Honda is still my favorite car. :) The best part is that we paid cash. The not so cool part is our savings taking a hit.

F.ound O.n R.oad D.ead

So, after my commenting about not having much to report? Well, I may have spoken too early. It has been an interesting weekend to say the least. What was supposed to be spring break for Andrew turned into a spiraling of events that the end result has meant we need a new car! It wasn't really events, but event. We had company in town for the weekend, and spent most of it dealing with a now dead Ford Explorer. Or as I call it - Exploder. And my experiences with Fords has definitely been, well, poor.

First one I had any experience with, a 1987 Ford Mustang caught on fire while I was in it. Driving. 2nd experience was with our first Explorer, a 98, that I hated. And it knew it to. As it would never break down on Andrew, but consistently failed on me. Never would repeat the failure once Andrew was around either. So the hatred was mutual apparently. That one finally bit the dust last June when the transmission failed suddenly. And seeing as how the truck was beat up (3 wrecks, 1 of which totaled it and resulted in a salvaged title, 160+ K miles) we decided to dump it for something more reliable, cheap and quick. So we bought this 96 Explorer with 125K quick and cheap. And well, it's gasped it's last breath. Failed to start on us Saturday, it's not the starter as we replaced that and still won't start. Transmission was failing and really began acting up before it failed to start. We had to have it towed home. Managed to get it running for enough time to get it in the garage, where it is now parked until we push it out.

So we are on the hunt for a new vehicle. Any one selling a decent car for a decent price? Lol. Or if you are searching for a fixer-upper F.ix O.r R.epair D.aily, let us know, we have one for cheap! You just have to haul it away.

March

Wow so it's been a while. Really not a lot going on with us right now. We are just getting through the days and moving forward with life! Right now I am looking up trees and shrubs to find something to plant on the front of the house. I have a garden area next to the garage which needs something done with it but it gets little sun so not much grows. Ahh well. If anyone has any suggestions, I'd love to know them! Hopefully this summer we'll be able to do some work in the back yard. Well I call it a yard. It's really a mass of dirt and weeds with some grass mixed in. I got my deck built last year (yay go Andrew and Dad!) but have yet to be able to enjoy it.

Anyway, I am going to go back to Googling plants. Bye!

God in a box

So, I've been reading this book by W.M. Young I believe, called "The Shack." And it has really gotten me thinking, especially about the way we, as humans, look at things.

One thing it's really made me realize is I have put God in a box more than I ever thought. I had thought, maybe in arrogance, that I was pretty good at letting God lead and be God. But the more I thought about it, the more I realized He was pretty firmly in a big, square box with the lid firmly shut.

For example, I've always had a "plan" for my life. Now, the plan in itself is not bad, and it's good to work towards goals. But when I did not make those goals, whether from health or other issues, I've struggled. I've become depressed, I've raged, I've ranted. Cursed life. All silently, of course, as no one but God would ever know my frustrations. And usually, it was when things didn't go my way, or "bad" things happened.

But, you know, who defined the word "bad." Humans? Or God? I think it was us, as humans. For example, and this example I took straight from the book, what do you think of when you see a poisonous plant? I don't have a specific plant in mind, but maybe something like poison ivy, that causes uncomfortable sensations? Or even a plant that if you touch it, maybe it has poison in it that kills you. Don't you define that as "bad?" But what if this same plant, this same poison that killed you, also if harvested and mixed with the right ingredients, then made a cure for something like cancer? Or AIDS? Wouldn't you then label the plant as good? So, which is it? Good or bad? The answer is, it is both good and bad, depending on your choice. You choose to see the poison that killed or the cure that saved. So isn't this true of the problems we run into in life, that we label as bad? Don't we choose how we see it?

So whenever problems arise, or things don't go as we want. Or even horrible things happen, you can choose. You can choose to wallow in your self pity and woe is me outlook. You can choose to ask why me (as I will be the first to say I am currently struggling with) or you can choose to say "God, I trust you, even in this." You can see the good in it, because if God is in it, then there is good in it. Even if you don't see it yet. It's there. And let's be honest. You may never in your lifetime figure out what "good" came out of it. But you can choose to believe that God is in control. That God is taking you to EXACTLY where you need to be. And choose to be happy in spite of the trials you may have experienced. And let God be God.

Simple things

You know, nothing like being away from home for a while to make you realize how pleasant things really are when you get home. Simple things, like having a big, cold glass of milk with a good dinner. Snuggling with Andrew. Watching TV on your own couch with your big blanket. Sometimes I get frustrated because I think my life is "boring" and that I have nothing of note to "show off." But coming home makes you realize what all you do have. And maybe it's not "big" and "flashy" but it's comforting, and warm, and dry. My life may not go the way I had planned out when I was young, but I have more to be thankful for than I will ever get around to actually giving thanks for.

Prayers

Please pray for us. Sometimes life throws you curve balls, and I don't understand where God is taking us. I don't understand what His plan is. I don't try to normally, just accept on faith that we are going where He needs us to be. But then the curve balls come, and I just struggle to hold on to my faith in the midst of incredible pain. That I know isn't near the pain that many others feel, but still, at this point, I can't comprehend anything more painful.

I don't understand, God. I don't know what is going on, I don't know what you want me to do, where you want me to. I'm standing here waiting for you to move, to guide, to direct, to heal the pain, to remember it's not on my time, but Yours. Please give me faith to cling to.