I heard this song on the radio on my way home today and it has been with me ever since. It's by Jeremy Camp, I think it's called There Will Be a Day. The chorus says:
"There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, no more fears. There will be day when the burdens of the place will be no more, we'll see Jesus face to face."
And all I can think of is the hope in that statement. The hope that all that I've been through these last few years will some day be irrevelant, the hope of things to come. The hope that some day, I will feel no more pain.
It bothers me some, that I am in this much pain, both emotionally and physically. Some part of me goes, you have the hope of Christ in your life, why are you in pain? I wonder if I am truly showing the love of Christ in my life with all my "complaining" and all of my sadness and all of my difficulty of coping. But I know that Christ never said I would never face trials, never feel pain, never experience bad things. But He did say He would be with me. In reality, things could be worse. Much worse. I realize that. It still doesn't seem to relieve the pain.
And yet, there will be a day. I know this in the deepest part of me. There will be a day.