Yesterday, as I was preparing my p17 shot, (suck it, prematurity. You will not get this one too) Elisa begins asking me all about it. And what it's for. The conversation goes something like this?
E: "What's that, mommy?"
Me: "It's a shot of some medicine mommy needs to take."
E: "Why do you need that, mommy?"
Me: "Well, it's to help the baby stay in mommy's tummy longer."
E thinks about that for a second: "Mom, you forgot to take that when I was in your tummy, didn't you?"
Can we say ouch?! Preemie mom guilt 101 and my own preemie child is now laying it on me lol.
I tried to explain to her how we just didn't know I needed it when she was in my tummy. That not every mom needs it, sometimes babies stay in their mommy's tummy until it's time to come out. But she persisted. "Why didn't you make the doctors give it to you? Did you tell them you needed it?"
Can we say stubborn?
Maybe it's just maternal pride, but I can't believe how she made that connection and just this young age of 5. But, then again, she always was a bit more "mature" than her age. Even in the NICU. They couldn't seem to believe how she was doing the things she was doing at her gestational age. No vent at 29 weeks, breathing on her own. Asking for bottles at 33 weeks gestation. Not supposed to do that until 34. Released at less than 36 gestation, not supposed to do that until 40. Or more, usually.
Tenacious.
So maybe I shouldn't really be surprised that she could make that connection. She knows her story. I hope she wants to share her story when she's older. Because her story is as amazing as she is.
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